The morning had a rocky start. The husband was in a bad mood that morning and was aggressively unpleasant when he took me to work. When I got to work I felt stressed and disoriented. Things at work required focus and problem solving. I wasn’t up for it. My anxiety levels were so high IContinue reading “February 2020”
Trigger Warning: Flashbacks, Sexual Abuse Day 1 We close our eyes intending to sleep. Instead we see a dimly lit room. We open our eyes and move beneath the covers. We are back in the now, in our bed.
Our experience with Facebook DID groups is that the group seems to function how we imagine group therapy to be. We are posting here our side of conversations we have participated in or posts that we have started as a way of trying to understand what is happening with us. January 5; incontinence and dissociation
One of our aspects, ‘The One Who Rages’, is part of a group of aspects that forms our work identity, ‘Those of Us Who Work’. The One Who Rages (OWR) role in the Lark in the Dark system is enforcing rules. OWR’s original teacher was an abuser who used rage and negative reinforcement tactics. OWRContinue reading “Experiment With Gratitude”
Our experience with Facebook DID groups is that the group seems to function how we imagine group therapy to be. We are posting here our side of conversations we have participated in or posts that we have started as a way of trying to understand what is happening with us.
The week after the Christmas party a co-worker, moved by the Christmas spirit, begins to sing a Bing Crosby Christmas carol. The flashbacks begin. This was one of the songs the radio played the night we were raped by the family friend. The family friend would sing to me when the bad things happened. IContinue reading “A Breath At A Time”
Yesterday I was at work. It was a stressful day with lots of unplanned out of my control events. Adding to the stress was the knowledge that the company Christmas party was that evening. I hate Christmas and I hate Christmas parties. To be fair, I hate most parties. I am always anxious and allContinue reading “My First Experience with a Child Aspect”
We felt very alone in our DID. A couple weeks ago it occurred to us to search for groups on Facebook that deal with dissociative disorders. I found them fairly easily and joined a group.
This protocol was designed to address the dissociation issues that arose during the second protocol. Dissociation is the brain’s coping mechanism to protect a person experiencing something traumatic. It is a survival mechanism. The first time dissociation happens it is a response to an actual threat of some kind – physical, emotional, mental, or sexualContinue reading “Neurofeedback – Third Protocol”
The purpose of neurofeedback is to teach the brain to regulate itself. What is the brain learning to regulate? That is complicated to explain because the brain does more than one job.