It has been over a month since my we used Brain Spotting to access the past life event tied to the sexual abuse I received as a young child. The child parts are quiet and at peace. The older parts have receded into the background except for the Witches and the Administrator. I believe weContinue reading “Journal May 24, 2022”
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Journal: April 20, 2022
We’ve been pretty stable these past months. The young one’s have been getting to know our therapist and are very fond of her. Because of their relationship with the therapist we’ve become aware that they didn’t have any toys. We picked them up a couple small things and let them color with our colored pencils. Continue reading “Journal: April 20, 2022”
Journal: December 4, 2021
At our therapy appointment this week we talked about Christmas and how it has triggered us in the past. We have been observing, waiting to see if we would have the same problems this Christmas as we have had in Christmas past. We haven’t had any difficulties with triggering, just a loathing for Christmas. WeContinue reading “Journal: December 4, 2021”
Journal: October 26, 2021
It’s been a while since we’ve posted. We’ve continued with the brain spotting therapy with some interesting results. Apparently the one who blogs also does the sketches. After one of our brain spotting sessions we went away and a depressed adolescent part came forward. All we would do is sit on the couch and doze. Continue reading “Journal: October 26, 2021”
Journal: March 29, 2021
We’ve had our second brain spotting session. It was a very different experience. During a previous therapy session with our therapist, we were asked if we could see the beauty in the toddler that we were. We couldn’t. I tried to work with the therapist’s request in meditation and experienced unexpected difficulties. I chose toContinue reading “Journal: March 29, 2021”
Journal: March 5, 2021
Being back to work is great, but the schedule doesn’t leave a lot of time for journaling. I’ve had a couple journal threads composing in my head. Of course by the time I sit down at the computer I don’t remember them. The portraits are coming along nicely. I’m ready to start the astrology portraitContinue reading “Journal: March 5, 2021”
Journal: February 6, 2021
I’m reading “Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook”, by Deborah Bray Haddock. I like it because it is an easy read, written in such a way that the average reader is engaged and comprehending. I’ve gotten to a section of the book where she is discussing how DID is not just something awful that we’ve survived, butContinue reading “Journal: February 6, 2021”
Journal: January 30, 2021
The uncertainty over my job has resolved itself. An ADA is in place stating that the Topiramate caused cognitive disfunction. I go back to work and living a graveyard schedule next Tuesday. The depression has broken up into a mist of yesterday and I’ve gone back to doing portraits. A success in it itself, butContinue reading “Journal: January 30, 2021”
Journal: January 19, 2021
Depression has been worsening. It takes a lot of energy to get up from the couch. Boredom is palpable, pressing me down into the space that I sit. All the things that there is to do I’ve done before and there is no urge to do them again. Inertia. I’m reminded of a piece ofContinue reading “Journal: January 19, 2021”
Journal: December 31, 2020
I’ve lost momentum on the portraits – a complete stop. I’m depressed. The husband has been mean and shouty to us for the last two days. I sit here and stare at nothing at all while my brain just grinds over and over disjointed thoughts. Half-hearted motivations to do something anything. Frequently something, anything isContinue reading “Journal: December 31, 2020”
Lark In The Dark - Discussing Dissociative Disorder 