The Christmas holiday is over. It’s been a year since the flashbacks led to awareness of the trauma I survived as a three-year-old at Christmas. This holiday season was much easier, more peaceful. No more revelations. Christmas music wasn’t a trigger this year. A huge breath of relief and a prayer of thanks has beenContinue reading “Journal: December 27, 2020”
Tag Archives: Disocciative Identity Disorder
Journal: December 24, 2020
What’s my name is a tricky question. Frequently the answer depends on where I’m at and who I’m with. In other blog posts on Lark In The Dark I’ve referred to a group of us named ‘the ones who work’. Where we work requires the use of a handheld radio. When we started our currentContinue reading “Journal: December 24, 2020”
February 2020
The morning had a rocky start. The husband was in a bad mood that morning and was aggressively unpleasant when he took me to work. When I got to work I felt stressed and disoriented. Things at work required focus and problem solving. I wasn’t up for it. My anxiety levels were so high IContinue reading “February 2020”
Awareness Event, January 2020
Trigger Warning: Flashbacks, Sexual Abuse Day 1 We close our eyes intending to sleep. Instead we see a dimly lit room. We open our eyes and move beneath the covers. We are back in the now, in our bed.
Journal January 2020
Our experience with Facebook DID groups is that the group seems to function how we imagine group therapy to be. We are posting here our side of conversations we have participated in or posts that we have started as a way of trying to understand what is happening with us. January 5; incontinence and dissociation
Experiment With Gratitude
One of our aspects, ‘The One Who Rages’, is part of a group of aspects that forms our work identity, ‘Those of Us Who Work’. The One Who Rages (OWR) role in the Lark in the Dark system is enforcing rules. OWR’s original teacher was an abuser who used rage and negative reinforcement tactics. OWRContinue reading “Experiment With Gratitude”
Journal – December 2019
Our experience with Facebook DID groups is that the group seems to function how we imagine group therapy to be. We are posting here our side of conversations we have participated in or posts that we have started as a way of trying to understand what is happening with us.
A Breath At A Time
The week after the Christmas party a co-worker, moved by the Christmas spirit, begins to sing a Bing Crosby Christmas carol. The flashbacks begin. This was one of the songs the radio played the night we were raped by the family friend. The family friend would sing to me when the bad things happened. IContinue reading “A Breath At A Time”
My First Experience with a Child Aspect
Yesterday I was at work. It was a stressful day with lots of unplanned out of my control events. Adding to the stress was the knowledge that the company Christmas party was that evening. I hate Christmas and I hate Christmas parties. To be fair, I hate most parties. I am always anxious and allContinue reading “My First Experience with a Child Aspect”
We felt very alone in our DID. A couple weeks ago it occurred to us to search for groups on Facebook that deal with dissociative disorders. I found them fairly easily and joined a group.
Lark In The Dark - Discussing Dissociative Disorder 